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Sometimes I take on way too much – because I love to get things accomplished. At any given time I have a running list of about 15 things I’d like to do around the house, with work, with Wyatt, etc. For some reason I’ve always found it difficult to just sit still and relax. Even when my husband and I are watching a movie I’m constantly getting up for various reasons – it drives him nuts. I’m sure this has something to do with my Anxiety disorder (did I ever talk about that?) – so I can’t really be too hard on myself – but sometimes it can get pretty bothersome.
I love the feeling of checking something off the list. And when I get something in my head – I feel this rush to immediately get it done. I hate putting things off to the last minute or waiting until the “right time”.
Lately I’ve been trying to force myself to move a little bit slower. It really is a lot to take on – I’m a stay-at-home mom, full-time student, and a little over part-time Virtual Assistant, oh – and blogger. I realized that I can’t do it all. I need to prioritize better. So, I’ve started really scheduling things out – and when it comes to work – I only allow myself to do a certain number of tasks per day so I’m not up until all hours of the night trying to get things done (which is what it’s been like lately).
I schedule all of Wyatt’s speech therapy and classes way ahead of schedule and I plan our days around him. Which is how it should be. Before I would spend almost every moment that he wasn’t awake doing school work or work. But, I’m almost 5 & 1/2 months pregnant and I just can’t do that anymore. The other night I actually nodded off while on the computer working – yeah, it actually happened.
I need to listen to my body, ask for help more often, and realize that just because something doesn’t get “checked-off” right away – doesn’t mean it’s never going to get accomplished.
My family, my son, my marriage, and our health is what matters. And when I’m 90 looking back I want to remember all of those little, precious moments – not how I aced every paper or how many clients I had.
I could have written this post myself! I have anxiety, too, and though I’ve actually managed to manage it somewhat decently since I was in college, it still rears it’s head sometimes. I can’t stand sitting and doing nothing, either. I find it hard to fall asleep because I’m always thinking of all the things I need to do. It’s rough, and I love your realization. I could stand to work on the same!
Lindsay – it’s really terrible – isn’t it? I’m on medication for mine that helps to level me out a bit. Without it my brain never stops! I too have a hard time sleeping – it’s like a hamster constantly running on a wheel. Let’s kick back and relax! ๐
Girl, life really has a way of catching up to you and just screaming STOP! It definitely sounds like you need to slow down, I hope you can get some much needed rest too! Listen to your body because, your body is normally right. ๐
Oh, yeah – I completely agree! I’m slowing things down and stopping to smell the flowers ๐
You and I are the same, girl!!! We all definitely just need to STOP and take a breather. ๐
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Carrie
https://readmylifeascarrie.blogspot.com/
Thanks Carrie! Let’s just take a deep breath together!!
Dear Little Momma….Breathe In Breathe Out…..Smile….thank God For This Day And For Your Family,Babies And Husband ….Enjoy Each Day….Slow Down…Enjoy Your Pregnancy….Every Day Levi Grows Closer To Being In Your Arms….Little Man Is HeRe And Loving His Family And Life In General….So…Live And Let It All Just Be. You ReallyArent In Control Of Your Destiny….Its In Gods Hands. If You Worry You Take Away His Reigns On Life…. Let Go….And…Let God. Then PeaCe Will Come Back As A Constant In Your Life. Give To All Like You Want To Be Given…..
That’s a lot of … ๐ You’re 100% right ๐
amen, momma!! I am SO THE SAME WAY – I struggle so much with just “sitting” and “being”. It’s really a disease, and it’s SO HARD to overcome!! I’m glad to hear that you’re taking a few steps back – I’ll try to take some tips from you ๐
When you have that little baby it will force you to take it easy and enjoy the little moments like feeding and snuggling! ๐
Hugs! I know exactly what you’re talking about sweetie and it isn’t easy to deal with… at all! You’re so busy girl! I guess I didn’t even realize it! I’m really not looking forward to getting that busy with school starting again at the end of August. Yuck! But this was a great reminder for me as well… like last night. Cory was playing baseball and Alea was sleeping, so I curled up in bed and watched 2 movies without getting up ONCE! It was amazing!
Ugh! That sounds so nice! My mind always goes to what I could get done – or what I need to do – I need to just RELAX! ๐
There is never enough time to get everything you need to do finished. Sometimes I just let a couple of things go.
Heidi’s Wanderings
It’s hard to admit that a strength is sometimes also a weakness. Hang in there girl!
-Ang