Things around here have been going really great.
A lot of doors have opened up for my family and I – and we couldn’t be more grateful.
However, some pretty stressful stuff has been going on as well.
Like the other day when I was checking our bank account online and realized that there were charges we didn’t make. That wasn’t fun at all. I am just happy I noticed them – ha – who wouldn’t notice a charge to an auto store? I don’t shop at auto stores – nope, I don’t do the “car” stuff aroud here.
Also, I’m still not pregnant. And the pain from my Endometrosis has been getting much worse. To be honest, it’s terrible. I’m on pain killers. I take them everyday. After my last surgery I maybe took one a week – and now I’m up to two a day. If I don’t take these pain killers I literally cannot move without feeling a stabbing pain in my abdomen. The growth of my Endometrosis has wrapped around my colon and spine. I know that’s gross – but I’m being honest. I know a lot of women suffer with this – I know of a few readers that suffer from this – and I want you to know that you’re not alone. I’m right there with you. I know the pain can sometimes become overwhelming. I know it can sometimes make you just want to stay in bed all day and cry. I want you to know if you ever need to reach out to someone – please let it be me. I would love to talk with you and help ease your troubles. Because I understand what you’re going through.
I’ve been praying a lot lately. Praying for help, for guidance, for answers. I’ve been praying for strength – just enough to make it through this rough patch. I know that there is a plan for my life – I know that I am experiencing all of this for a reason. And for that, it’s hard to be angry. I’m leaving it in his hands.
So yeah, there’s a few “downs” but there is also a few “ups” as well.
And I’d much rather focus on them.