|Little Levi’s foot|
It’s really hard to make the transition from your world being upside down to it being almost right-side up again. There is no way I could ever explain the mental craziness that happened this week. It was a roller-coaster of emotions – one minute I was fine, the next I was lying on the floor of Wyatt’s room sobbing because it was the only place where William and Wyatt couldn’t hear me.
It was an experience that has made me stronger and more appreciative. People I talk to now are saying but he still might have brain damage? And William and I answer Yes, but we’ll have him.
I suppose we should still be terrified – but we’re not. We’re hopeful. We know the road with Levi will be a difficult one – but in comparison to the road we thought we were going to be heading down with him – this is nothing.
Yes, he will have surgery once he’s born to remove the cysts, and yes he still has a clubbed foot, and yes he might have some brain damage. But I will be able to hold my son in my arms. I will be able to kiss his little heart-shaped mouth and I will be able to tell him face to face that I love him.
I have no doubt he will be a fighter. I have no doubt that he will teach us all many lessons. And most of all, I have no doubt that his little life will be so incredibly cherished by those who surround him.